good morning world

I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night,

I'm the one that makes you laugh, when you know you're about to cry,

I know your favourite songs, and you tell me about your dreams,

think i know where you belong, think i know its with me.

Cant you see that i'm the one who understands you,

Been here all along so why cant you see,

You belong with me.

I'll never get bored of this. Anyways, i'm going out for lunch later with Ke Hui, not sure where but yea, we'll think of a place soon.

can someone pls push me to do my stupid journal. what the hell, i'll have to finish it by tonight anyways, its DUE tmr. hahaha, when is it ever not a last minute work. haha, you know one thing i dont understand about students in other program in HELP college, they have no idea what citations and refrencings are. I mean, how can yall not know? how do yall do your assignment and essays then? i'm not saying this to diss anyone else, its just that i REALLY REALLY dont know how students can write a paper now without refrencing. I mean, haven't we reach the stage that it isn't highschool papers anymore? No karangan, No ringkasan and such. Isn't it research papers already now? haha, i'm just curious. How is it that some college doesn't even teach citing. Well, i had a hard time in college learning this, and life in uni now is MUCH EASIER!! and for that, THANK YOU mr. K! I really hated they way he pushed us during college, but thinking back about it now, if it wasn't for him, i'd be suffering now. speaking about citations, OMG, PPL, THERE'S AN EASIER WAY, i'm not teaching yall to take the easy way out or such, when it really saves alot of time!! I of course suggest that you know how to cite with your own brains and know where to underline or put a period or a comma and which comes first or second. and when you excel is doing this YOURSELF! pls save your time, and GOOGLE this, *son of citation*. Its a machine that helps us cite and finish our refrencing. just put all the informtion in, submit, and TADAAA... its all done, then just copy and paste. I have to admit that i use this all the time, i mean come on, we have to write tones and tones of pages in an assignment, it can reach up to 20 pages or more, so i use this to save my time. I dont see anything wrong with it i guess. its not like i'm plagiarising or such.

.

oh well, i need to go brush my teeth now, YES, i just woke up, AND KE HUI's coming over soon. and i have class at 12. =(

sheesh, wonder what we're gonna do in tutor today. hopefully we're playing games today. =)

YAY!! although i have a feeling that we're not. haha.

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sorry, i just felt like writing in small fonts today. wanna make yall all blind!!!

awww

My grandfather's clock

Was too large for the shelf,

So it stood ninety years on the floor;

It was taller by half

Than the old man himself,

Though it weighed not a pennyweight more.

It was bought on the morn

Of the day that he was born,

It was always his treasure and pride;

But it stopped short

Never to go again,

When the old man died.

A girl from public speaking class today commemorated about her late grandfather. She sang this song as an attention grabber. she started crying halfway, and yes, she manage to bring many of us to tears. *i'm sure your grandfather was a great man, and lucky to have you as a granddaughter*. It was one of the best speech I have heard because she managed to connect well with her audience.

Anyways, i wrote my name in chinese CORRECTLY today. haha, thanks to shimron, who has the patience to teach someone like me. haha, and I kinda made alot of noise in class today. and got scolded by my dear ke hui. haha, but i had fun writing things today. haha. i tried writing in cursive today, but guess what, i sucked! i realise that shimron's quite talented in many ways. haha, he amazes me from time to time. (dont kembang mister)!! thanks for the pau!! i will be able to forge your signature one day. watch me! i'll keep the cards we wrote on. haha

I'm watching legally blonde now ppl!

later. =)

two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

You know this could be something'

Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,

The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

You make it hard for breathing'

Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everythings okay

And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you'

Cause baby two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And I've figured out with all that's said and done

Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.

Realise how it ends. all these while it was only *maybe two is better than one*, and at the end, two IS better than one.

Webster's open house

-Yatze and I, haha, i just felt like sitting on her, and well, she didn't mind. i love you yatze-

-hahaha, look at that ass, good god-

-nafisa, me, anisa, yatze-

the pictures were suppose to be upload a few weeks back but i really didn't have the time. and now i'm free cause i'm having break now.
random, but MY STOMACH HURTS!!! =( damn.

its 29th october 2009!

When she stares at your mouth, Kiss her
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy because she thinks she'sstronger than you, Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet, Ask her what's wrong
When she ignores you, Give her your attention
When she pulls away, Pull her back
When you see her at her worst, Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying, Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking, Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scared, Protect her
When she steals your favourite hoodie, Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you, Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt, Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you, she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands, Hold hers and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes, don't look away until she does
Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
Treat her like she's all that matters to you
Stay up all night with her when she's sick
Watch her favourite movie with her or her favourite show even if you think it's stupid
Give her the world
Let her wear your clothes
When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
Let her know she's important
Don't talk about other girls around her
Kiss her in the pouring rain
When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:"Whose butt am i kicking baby?"

If only guys will know how to do things like this without having to ask for it. (i have to admit, that some guys still think with their balls brains) but hey, its only a hand full of people. I have no idea why, but i'm feeling kinda emotional right now. I need a break from everything, i'm feeling really tired lately because of the on-going meetings in college, and the never ending assignments being put at desk.

I was talking to Elaine on the phone that day, and i really miss her so much cause =), there are things i dont even have to say and she knows what i'm thinking about already. I'm seriously planning to go to singapore soon, solely yo see her of course. maybe on the 21st november ok dear? Wont want you to go through your anniversary alone. Wye Yee and I will do your best to make it alright. And pls, lets talk again soon.

Planning to go to Uk next year. sigh thinking about it is making me really worried. results are not satisfiying, the expenses there is going to burn a hole in my dad's wallet! and sigh, the main problem is leaving all this behind. I have to go either way, sooner or later, and i think it will be the best time to learn independence!

Ya know, few of my friends (CSY, KeHui, Wye Yee and more) realise that.. unfortunately, we are already adults. we've reached the stage where puppy love isn't what we're looking for. as CSY always says, Social Cultural theory, states that woman look for guys that have a stable career, good education.. etc, because they have no direct power to the world (economically la).I dont wanan get too much on the theory side, i just know that what we look for in a guy isn't puppy love anymore. it use to be *ohh he's hot, why not go for it* or *lets just gain experiences first*. now the word *future* comes up alot when things are eing considered. the word *support*, *long term*. I guess as we grow, the responsibilities grow as well, and then these grows, sigh, the more we think. Love isn't just a term to represent the status of a relationship. It includes so much more, the feelings, the action.. etc. two doesn't have to be in a relationship to love. well, i guess this is all according to me la. I have no conclusion or whatsoever to what i've been trying to say, i just needed to express a lil out before i explode.

Hold me now

Don't... don't close your heart to how you feel

Dream, and don't be afraid the dream's not real

Close your eyes, pretend it's just the two of us again

Make believe this moment's here to stay

Touch... touch me the way you used to do

I know tonight could be all I'll have with you

From now on, you'll be with someone else instead of me

So tonight, let's fill this memory

For the last time -

Hold me now

Don't cry, don't say a word

Just hold me now

And I will know -

Though we're apart,

we'll always be together F

orever in love

What do you say when words are not enough?

Time... time will be kind once we're apart

And your tears... tears will have no place in your heart

I wish I... I could say how much I'll miss you when you're gone

How my love for you will go on and on and

Hold me now

Don't cry, don't say a word

Just hold me now

And try to understand that

I hope at last you've found

What you've been searchin' for

And though I won't be there anymore

I will always love you

(Hold me now)

(Don't cry,) don't say a word

Just hold me now

And I will know -

Though we're apart, we'll always be together

Forever in love

What do you say when words are not enough?

What can I say When my words are not enough

so random, so not funny

its Wednesday today...

• Its raining
• It'll be a wonderful time to sleep and snuggle in somebody's arms
• I will be missing ballet again tonight
• I foresee Miss Mak killing me
• I missed tutor today because we didn't see a point in attending
• I could have gone to the gym if i know there isn't anything that was going to happen during tutor, and i could have worked out!!!
  
• I'm feeling super sleepy now
• Oh yea, not forgetting to mention, I'M ALL WET NOW BECAUSE I WAS WALKING IN THE RAIN! again. I'm going to fall sick soon, watch me.
• Pray for me ppl!

i'm waiting to go in to class at four, hopefully it'll finish early, then i wont be getting stuck in the jam! SHIORI, do you know that the frigging lizard pop in my face while i was driving to school today! THANK GOD i didn't crash into anyone on the highway ok. stupid lizards!!! WHY ARE LIZARDS SO ATTRACTED TO MY CAR!!!
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i want ice cream!

today..

Should i go the gym tmr, or should i rest?
I talked to Elaine today early in the morning, YES! i called all the way to singapore and my mum caught me using the phone. haha, kinda got a lil sounnding from her, but ooh well, i'm still alive now.
Holloween is this saturday! and i wanna have some fun too. Rianne's birthday is this sunday and haha, if things are going good, i feel like baking for her.
Anyways, i have this sudden urge to talk about the lecturer for the development psych that i'm in right now, and shiori is right, she seriously doesn't know her work on the tip of her fingers like how kenneth does, and sigh, i really miss kenneth, i think he's a really good lecturer! like the best, besides hera and goh of course. and speaking of lecturers, this reminds me of the tutor we have for econs. ohhh, trust me, i'm not the only one who thinks that he doesn't deserve to teach in HELP! the one thing about HELP that brings up the name is the awesoe lecturers there. well, i'm starting to think otherwise cause of this econs tutor. like what CSY says *i will condemn him even if he's a high school teacher* hahha, funny funny!
Honestly, i had an awesome day today. thank YOU!

Elaine Kim Nevis

sweetheart,
when i got your msg last night, my heart honestly was torn into two. and trust me, i wasn't the only one who felt this way. The four of us are very very worried about you. Dear, you just have to know that things will eventually get better. And pls dont compare yourself to your classmates cause they had the benefit of learning the steps from scratch, and you dont. yes i know the feeling sucks, but wtv it is never think you're useless or helpless or wtv. cause with or without us elaine, you're still the amazing sweet girl we all know. You just moved over, things will definately be hard at first cause you know, need to learn to adapt to people there and cope with the changes but when that phase is over, trust me, you'll have a hell of a time there.

we promise i'll come see you as soon as possible ok, DO NOT EVER HESITATE TO MSG US IN THE WEE HOURS IN THE MORNING!!! (anytime for that matter). We'll write the the steps for you, and send it over asap! we'll get miss mak's help as well, just in case we go wrong anywhere ok.

we really miss you alot!! and always remember, you're a big part of us, so wtv happens, you'll always have this C4 having your back. we love you so much, i love you so much.
take care of yourself ok, i'll msg you soon enough.

always c4e!!

just another ordinary day

I think i'm about to die out of boredom!
was suppose to go to the gym with chiam SY, but haha, i suddenly got lazy.
ya know, i need a new blog skin, but i just cant find one that suits me cause they either look too lala, or too filled in with deco, which looks overlly messy. ugh.

Trisha had her competition in Tropicana Mall on sunday, and i heard that she did really well. sorry baby, i couldn't see you perform, but i'm very proud of you ok. and you look gorgeous because (hahahaah, i did your make up for you, and everyone else). thank you thank you!! i know you didn't get the result you wanted, but at least you got something right? you did well sa, and mummy's very proud of you and so is Sarina. and SAMANTHA, thanks for helping me that day, dont know what i'll do without you! couldn't have finished it so fast. =) loves.

econs suck

Should i go for the concert on saturday?
I really hate making decision like this. know what, i hate making decision as a whole.
Just came out from Econs class, and i was sleeping half way through, as usual la. But hey, i did make notes today, so its actually something considering its econs. I hate econs, never planned to do econs, never will do econs again, dont even know what the hell am i doing in econs class.
Was gonna have lunch when i realise that i'm frigging broke today! all the damn petrol's fault!
i dont feel like blogging anymore, sooo.. i'm gonna stop! later ppl!

congrats

TRISHA WONG SUET YEE!

even though its number four,

you know deep in my heart i'm still so very proud of you.

you'll always be my baby sister.

late at night

I've always complain about people who are flickled minded about things. Not being able to decide is one thing, but choosing a path, then choosing another the next second and changing the decision at every second pisses the shit out of me. But hey, know what, i'm doing it to myself now, and *smiles*, of course i cant bring myself to scold or complain about myself. I'll just show a temper for 5 minutes or so. I'm suppose to be in bed now, sleeping, but haha, insomnia is kicking in. yes yes, IT IS SELF DIAGNOSED because of ONE theory I, myself would love to believe it. and haha, call me stupid, i think i'm going through alot right now (depression). i haven't been eating properly lately, not because i wanna torture myself or all the diet thingy, no!! Its just that i dont have the appetite to eat. I know i've been having gastric lately cause my stomach hurts a lil, thats when i force myself to eat something, but other than that, I'M SERIOUSLY JUST NOT HUNGRY! looking at food make me dizzy. haha, i amaze myself all over again.

Poison's barking like as though she saw a thief just now, haha, good girl i guess. YES, SCARE ALL THE BAD PEOPLE AWAY!!! Grandmother just woke up, god knows why. haha, maybe she has insomnia too!!! runs in the family i guess.

Was talking to Wye Yee earlier just now and we were talking about how she stalked Boys Like Girls. haha, and was telling me about her friend Dan (if i'm not wrong), she is HILARIOUS!! Martin Ong, Lenka Ong!!! hahahahahaha.

Fans : If you were to sacrifice one part of your body, which would it be?
Paul : *thinks*, hmmm, my fingernails?
Carmen : HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!!!!

anyways, i really gotta go to bed already or not I wouldn't be able to wake up tmr. good night yall!

Elaine Kim Nevis

Elaine,
i really wish you're in m'sia right now. Things here aren't going as good as it is suppose to be. sigh. Everything is screwing with my head. Its seriously overwhelming. All the emotions' just coming in at one time, and the worst part is, I BROUGHT THIS ONTO MYSELF! i think i'm just digging deeper into my grave now. I dont wanna go into detail here about everything, but i'm just going through alot of shit and everytime i feel like crying, i think about you. ok, lets update you on other things (put my problems aside right).
anyways, advance 2 steps are seriously difficult. the exercises are frigging long, and the new steps are hard. body twisting hard. i got a spain on my back because of one exercise we did that yesterday. Charmaine, haha, contact her to find out her stories la. Celine's and Charmaine's exams are in 27 days. Wye Yee's still into her thunder wedding song, and of course Bryan!! How are you there? Jon's out from NS for now? get back to me soon k dear. i miss you so much.

always,
carmen

she grew

-haha, she honestly looked so funny when she was young back then-

-then my baby grew, PROUD MUCH-

-and now, haha, she's just awesomely scary!! i love you-

malacca gone, ipoh here i come

Malacca was awesome, the food was really good, and haha, we had alot of fun. I love sitting in a car in a long distanse trip, (expect when i need to pee tho). I'm off to ipoh tmr, and hopefully it'll be as awesome as malacca, WHICH I REALLY THINK IT WILL BE BECAUSE I'LL BE SURROUNDED BY DOG!! YAY!!

what do i do when its me who put myself into a situation like this. I'm selfish, just put it that way.

deepavali

haha, now i know that there are other people who reads my blog as well. haha, big thanks!
anyways, went to deepavali open house at websters. and i think he has an awesome house. damn, the amount of animals they have. cats, dogs, fish, rabbits, birds, tortoises, and a PEACOCK!!! oooo, and there's chickens as well. haha, the peacock's really cool though. and the drinks were really good as well. no idea what drink he mixed in, but i think its really good.

i've been watching house again. and let me tell you this, he's still that hilarious to me. i'll be uploading pictures soon enough. i'm off to bed now, nights love!

HAPPY DEEPAVALI INDIANS and everyone else. =)

thank you jiansheng!!

well, i guess my assumption of no guys being gentlemen anymore... was wrong.
cause thanks to awesome possum jiansheng, he practically saved my life!! (guys, yall really have to thank him for saving each one of you an ounce of dignity).
Shiori attended class yesterday, and it was so good to finally see her again. i think she grew taller, but then again, everyone's taller than me. so wtv la. Was standing around the bus stop (as usual, the million impatient ppl trying to get their way up there) and bumped into jiansheng. After what i wrote about in my last post, haha, smart dude said *here carmen, go first*. hahaha, well, at least he did ok. but either way, i know he wont push or fight to go up to the bus. he'll let any other girl in first. this is what i call a gentlemen. thank you again!
then, shiori and i was heading towards my car. We open the car door, put our stuff at the back seat, and *SCREAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM*. Shiori's awesome screaming was something i haven't heard in a super LONG time. haha, we saw a LIZARD. and of course i didn't dare to drive after that. i mean come on, what if it jumps on me while i drive, and i hit someone on the road. no way i'm going to drive with that thing in my car. so we called for help. shiori wanted to ask some dudes playing basketball in the court, but they all looked as though they we scared of lizards themselves too. so screw it, didn't even bother to ask them.
i called Jiansheng and asked him to rush here to save us both. haha, and as i said, he is a gentlemen, of course he rushed here, with a plastic bag in his hand.
haha, he tried catching the lizard (with his hands, gross!! but haha, he's still awesome).
in the end, the lizard went into the engine conpartment, which *i hope* as good as dead.
then only we drove off after that.
YOU'RE AWESOME! hehe, thank you jiansheng!

midterms

Ke Hui stayed over last night, to study with me. Konon-nya la. haha, but we did study a lil, here and there. We took a break for "15 minutes" which somehow turned to one hour. She's hooked on her CSI investigation and i'm with my zombies thingy thing thing. I was falling asleep already until KeHui found a damn cockroach in my frigging toilet.and guess what, it wasn't only a normal cockroach, IT WAS A FRIGGING FLYING FEMALE BITCH EVIL CRAWLING/FLYING LOOKING MONSTER!! ugh, i freaked out obviously and ran to my mum. She then took newpaper out and slam slam slam. peace after that. =)

I have big issue with guys who DO NOT know how to be gentlemen. i mean come on la, when the girl wants to get on the bus, let her up first, but instead, most guys in my college kills to get in the bus. pushing and pushing and pushing everyone else away to get on the bus. I have to admit that there are a handful of guys which will still says ladies first, which lucky me have witness. There are those one or two who will even offer seats in the bus other the elderly/girls/disable.. etc. I guess most guys now just doesn't get this. oh well.

I just finish my social psychology paper. i think it was awesome. dont wanna jinx it, but i could do mostly all the questions asked. THANK KENNETH for that. I think i've been stressing myself out too much for the pass whole week, and it ends ugly. I'm awfully sick right now, my damn throat is swallon, coming down with a fever, and my whole body aches, especially my nape. and guess what, i still have another paper on wednesday. what joy!!

i hope yall feel better than i have been for the pass week. but i have to say, MELLACA WAS FUN, AND IPOH HERE I COME!!!

midterms

i wish i could still lie down on the floor like this in college. midterms are here and honestly, i'm feeling so stress. movie review isn't done yet, and there are people who's already done with it, good god. I need to destress. dance dance dance it all off! But i'm going to melacca tmr and YES!!! omg, a break finally.

i just watched PS i love you and i cried my eyeballs out. I think what he did was so sweet. like what people say, when you love something, let it go and if its meant to be, it'll always be there.

The 8th of october

Went to the gym today, finally. I've been dreading to go, well, maybe cause i really dont wanna go alone to the gym. Joey doesn't like going to the gym, Rianne's always studying (good girl, but too much la), Shien Yin's always going when i'm not free, Lai Wei's always asleep. I wanted to work out till I kill myself today, but haha, i couldn't kill myself. I think only swimming will kill me this way. and yes, saturday here i come.

Had a presentation on monday, and honestly, i'm still quite upset about it. No offence to the rest of the class but i feel that its really unfair that he allowed everyone else to re-do the whole presentation. The whole class could have gotten the marks that the first 4 did. but they were all given a second chance. He talked so proudly in front, talking as tho the saved the rest from getting low marks, but what he didn't realise was he crushed the first few who do it. The least he could have done was to allow the first four to re-do it as well. Come on, how much time is it going to take up. One person will only take up max. 8 minutes, x4, half an hour, its not even going to take up half the time of the class.. screw it, i'll just have to make up for it. watch me.

anyways,

Dear Elaine,
OMG, i feel like crying right now. really really feel like crying. when i say the distance does matter, i mean it. when i say dancing without the four of you, i mean it. we were buying flowers for miss mak, and we had to divide our money into FOUR!!! then it hit me, it use to be FIVE. NOT FOUR!!! damn, you left for such a long time already and the feeling still hasn't sunk in yet. I know how frustrating it can be to not know whats missing, i get that feeling alot. well, although we're futher away from each other now, i still can feel what you're going through. just remember you'll never be alone. i feel like hugging you now. Let me fill you in a lil about things going on here ok? my exams are coming, and i'm honestly stressed out because i really need awesomely good grade this time round to get into a uni in UK next year. I think i'll be leaving in august next year. (we have ot meet up before then ok, PLS). Other than that, the steps for advance two is very confusing. quite a hand full of new steps, but we're all coping la. we're still fighting NOT to stand in front, but charmaine will mostly end up in front again. haha, the rolling eyes girl (you know who) is still here.. hmmm, what else, haha, i haven't been walking into men washroom. hahaha you're hilarious! Joey came the fear of speaking public and i have to say that i am very proud of him. It did not go fantasticly well (so i heard from other people, cause i wasn't with him when he did it), but the fact that he was willing to go on stage to speak in front of 400 over people in the audience for around 6 minutes or so is a very big step. haha. hmmm.. what else.. Wye Yee stalked Boys like Girls last week i think, in the hotel i think. i'm not quite sure about it la but i know she went stalking them, so she's like a pro in stalking now. haha, thats about it for now la. and you?? how's school and all? how you coping in the non-gum chewing country. are you driving there? be careful when you drive there ok, police there aren't like police in m'sia where you can bribe, haha. i love you la. still hate you for leaving though. but i'll still be honest and tell you that i really miss you. =)

yours always, carmen.

up close and dangerous

a sign to fix my damn hair.

Its been a crazy week, honestly i thought i was going to break down and cry but as always, i surprised myself. got ready for quiz on monday, wednesday and FRIDAY, but yea, kenneth decided not to. He decided to have two chapters combined in one quiz. such JOY! somehow, i' m quite sure all the previous chapter will be tested as well. go carmen!! Talking about Kenneth, he talks so much about his wife and Sean/Shawn. i find it uber sweet. Wonder if his wife knows that he's actually so proud to have her.

Kenneth brough up a push and pull effect on friday. The fear that causes the push and the drive that cause the pull. damn, this got me thinking about alot of things. Then all the guilt started to build up. and guess what, its still in me now. sheesh man.

*****

Your bloody first impression already plucked my last nerve. So, dont go rubbing your ass on my back. Its disgusting. Dont say hey, dont make eye contact with me, dont even look my way. Dont try to be nice because i already dont like you. You know who you are, call me a jealous fuck for all i care, save yourself some pride.

wiggle it

Its been awhile.
i have nothing much to blog about.
I'M JUST HAPPY!

To the window, to the wall, (to dat wall)

To the sweat drop down my balls (MY BALLS)

To all these bitches crawl (crawl)

To all skeet skeet motherfucker (motherfucker!)

all skeet skeet got dam (Got dam)

To all skeet skeet motherfucker (motherfucker!)

all skeet skeet got dam (Got dam)

Let me see you get low you scared you, scared you

Drop dat ass to the floor you scared you, scared you

Let me see you get low you scared you, scared you

Drop dat ass to the floor you scared you, scared you

Drop dat ass ya shake it fast yaP

op dat ass to the left and the right ya

Drop dat ass ya shake it fast ya

Pop dat ass to the left and the right ya

Now back,back,back it up

a back,back,back it up

a back,back,back it upa back,back,back it up

Now stop ( O) then wiggle wit it

Now stop ( O) then wiggle wit it

Now stop ( O) then wiggle wit it

Now stop ( O) then wiggle wit it

CHANT WITH ME!!! OO OO..
sorry, dont mind me, a lil hyper now.

mixed emotions = overwhelming

As much as i wanna be all woo hoo about blogging now, i cant.
Seriously not in the mood today, but i have to blog.
We woke up very early today to go KLIA. we just had to send elaine off. watching her leave, was heartbreaking. When i hugged her, there were just so many things i wanted to say, but tears were filling up and a just couldn't open my moth to speak. thinking back about it now hurts as much as it did this morning. I guess the feeling hasn't sunk in yet. The fact that she's coming back soon also helps alot. I'm really looking forward to her return. Beside's M'sia is her home.
Everyone goes throuhg rough patches, and i guess i'm just ging through mine now. Like Wye Yee says, everything is just coming to me at once, and its honestly over overwhelming. Yes i know that these aren't real problems, its not like i'm facing money crisis, or a loss of a family member, i'm still human, i have expectations and when things dont reach up to my standards, i just dont go YAY-ing about it. But i know i will get over everything soon. i for one person, dont get angry or stay upset for long. Its just for a moment, maybe just one night.
Was watching Taylor's video clip *you belong with me*, yes, again. hey, what can i say, i really enjoy watching it. Feels as though sometimes, fairy tale do actually exist in reality. But come to think of it again, its a song. I would like to believe that fairy tales do happen, people do have happy ending. People can say i'm stupid to think so, but it makes me happy and i survive one day after another thinking as such so i dont see a problem with it. Sometimes i do wish we get that spark everyday, if you know what spark i'm talking about. sigh, i need to feel appreciated, especially to those i've gone out all the way for.

Anyways, a lil conversation Celine and I had

CelineLee says:
carmen! thank you so much for just now ok.

CelineLee says:
hehe

CelineLee says:
i love you.

CelineLee says:
my mum praised you, she said, you are a very good friend. hahaha. she said i'm lucky to have you as a friend, awwww.

CelineLee says:
and i can't believe you folded my clothes

CelineLee says:
-__-

carmen says:
hahahhaha.. i love you too..

carmen says:
yes i'm awesome.. hahaha..

carmen says:
yea la, you chuck it aside like that..

carmen says:
fold la. hahaha

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CelineLee says:
OMGOMGOMG. i wanted to tell you something.

carmen says:
haha

carmen says:
what?

carmen says:
HE WINKED AT YOU?

carmen says:
omgggggggggggggg

carmen says:
DID YOU WINK BACK?

carmen says:
OMGGGGGGGG

CelineLee says:
just now that girl right, she did galop, i suddenly thought of elaine. the last time she did galop in that studio

carmen says:
DID HE MENTALLY RAPE YOU?

carmen says:
OMG

CelineLee says:
oh btw, the examiner so mean lah, i smile he don't want to smile.

carmen says:
DDID YOU CRY?

CelineLee says:
HAHAHA

CelineLee says:
shit you NO LA

CelineLee says:
AHAHHAA

carmen says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

carmen says:
seriously didn't smile/

carmen says:
does he look like KFC?

carmen says:
not the chicken la

CelineLee says:
yeah, and he looks like one of my uncle in australia

CelineLee says:
HAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

CelineLee says:
HAHAAHHAHAHAHA

CelineLee says:
he looks delicious

CelineLee says:
like chicken

carmen says:
YUCKKK!!!

CelineLee says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAHAHA

carmen says:
hahahahhaha

carmen says:
you're disgusting!!

CelineLee says:
i was hungry la

CelineLee says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

carmen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

carmen says:
ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!

CelineLee says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

CelineLee says:
yeahhh!

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CelineLee says:

...and having the BEST ballet teacher ever

carmen says:
hahahahhahaha, YES AND I LOVE MISS MAK.. I WOULDN'T TRADE HER FOR THE BEST BALLET TEAHER IN THE WORLD..

carmen says:
OH WAIT, THE BEST TEACHE RIN THE WORLD IS HERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

carmen says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH

CelineLee says:
hahahahaahahahhahahahahaha

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carmen says:

because you had so much support

CelineLee says:
i had like the best support ever

CelineLee says:
HAHAHA

carmen says:
got teacher there la, then synthia was there as well

carmen says:
and you had awesome charmaine and carmen theree

carmen says:
with is tough than comdoms la

carmen says:
*whichi

carmen says:
hahahhahahah

CelineLee says:
haahahahhahahahahahahahhaha

Dont ask about the condom part, i'll tell yall about it tmr. haha, Charmaine, Wye Yee and I just made up so awesome poems which doesn't make any sense at all. =) hahaha.

The 5 of us will always be stuck together, and guess what, i'm not a person who stays upset for long, i will make myself happy again.