dearest you

Dont bitch stare me when it was your boyfriend who smiled at me first

i want ice cream

Lines i've heard before throughout my life, and somehow reminds me of the past.
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*I give up, I just cant please everyone at the same time*
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*Going by the rules, makes everyone else happy. I'm breaking the rules now, and finally i'm happy*
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*Trying to give into everyone at the same time is just gonna make me neglet and eventually hurt myself, I just want to do something for myself in return now. I honestly do not think that I am being unfair*
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Define not caring? Define rules? Define unfair? To what extend can we move on without caring. Telling ourselves not to care is just gonna make us care more. with the fact that we're able to get upset about something, and end up saying things like *i give up*, shows how much it actually means to you. so there again, i ask, to what extend can we not care?
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I remember a friend telling me this back in my highschool days, saying a phase like such (although i dont remember her exact words), and i thought to myself that she's right, sometimes, we just cant please everyone all at once. But as time went on, i've come to realise that not wanting to care for something that we really do care about, messes up our minds big time. learnt that through the hard way.
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On the other hand, there are times were we have to put ourselves first. The world's a bitch, it can be your bet friend for one second and stab you in another. Sometimes, we ourselves have to be the bitch to protect ourselves and our love ones. but like what Franklin said today, as long as you know what you're doing is right thing, i guess its fine. but then again, what is right to one person might not be for another. sheesh, i'm confusing myself now.
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anyways, i've been my happy self again lately. sometimes, i think i have a bipolar disorder and it scares me. haha, but i have my reasons when i'm down. I feel like eating a bucket of ice cream, or cupcakes. *fattening much*. Went for LLS today, did our last journal, which was as crappy as the last one was (all of it are crappy). Suppose to help mum with the house but she decided to go out as well, so i went over to Baby's house and spent sometime with him. Had Wisma's nasi lemak for lunch, which he says it isn't as nice as before. stole some chocolate from his fridge and yes, we made nuggets. ROCK NUGGETS!!! i have no idea how it turned out to be as hard as rocks. stupid nuggets.
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Hey baby,
We went through another rough patch. i think its our 3major rough patch throughout this 2 years huh? but hey, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger right? I've been through so much with you, and i have proudly say that i know you inside out. but the one thing i am so clear with myself is that, a life without you is just depressing. I'm not trying to be cheesy here, when i say its depressing i mean it. I dont want to make it seem like i have to depend on you, but baby, there's just this part of me that needs you around. (omg, how am i going to survive in UK). I'm not going to say those sweet lines like *your hand fits mine perfectly* *you complete me* and etc, we're got through that stage, and you know all of it already, i just want to say that there are many times you just make me so upset, you make me wanna give up, but the second i think about these things, you'll just do something to make me smile again. sigh, i dont know what to do with you sometimes, but i know i'm loving you more as each day passes. Like i always say to you baby, it takes me 3 seconds to say i love you, but i'll take a lifetime to show it. I do love you.
Joey Seok.

Come back to M'sia people

ZOE HUAN SU WEN IS BACK IN THIS BURNING COUNTRY!!
HELL YEA..
you're going out next week ok.

Dearest Elaine,
Hey dearie, tlaked to you last night, not for long tho, but i updated you on things here. haha, shocker right? I really wanted to talk for a longer time but arghhh, assignments are piling up so quickly, its is seriously driving me crazy!! like what Janice says, eat assignments, breathe assignments, sleep with assignments, assignment assignment assignment. and beside, i have gourp members who can drive me up the wall at times. oh well, we'll talk again really soon ok? i'm glad to hear that things are getting better there. haha, Celine and Charmaine's having her exams, Wye Yee is gonna sit her for exams soon, and so will I. and =( i'm going off the UK next year. pls come back before i go ok. then i wont be crying alone then. haha, its amazing how we can still read each other's mind over the phone yesterday without me having to say it out in words, despite the distance. haha.
Anyways, sorry i cant make it to singapore this weekend, wye yee's really busy and i know my parents wont let me go alone. sigh, i was really looking forward to it.
I miss you. GET BACK SOON!!!
in decemeber alright. =)
i'll call you soon dear. take care of yourself ok. *hugs*
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Carmen

to be continued

Why do people use the word BOD instead of body.
Why do people use the word HOT instead of beautiful or handsome.
Why do people use the word sexy instead of gorgeous.
Why do people use relate girls to such sexual manner all the time.
we're not sex toys.

random lines

why so hyped? come on, it was just a debate. chill a lil la. ohhh wellllll.....
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People think that being a princess is superficial, that it is about what you wear, and how you look. Well, it is a lil bit about how you look. But, more importantly, it is about what you have to offer the world and who you are inside.
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I'd read you a book to sleep if it helps you sleep. I'd run my fingers through your hair the whole night if you like. I'd dance around like a clown if it makes you smile. I'd sing to you eventhough i know i have sing to save a life, if you would like me to do so. I'd be all ears if you need someone to talk to. I'd be beside you if you need someone to hug. I'd be Carmen, if you need me in your life. Cause I know i'll always be around.
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Two is better than one.
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I AM DONE WITH JOURNAL!!!! *evil laughs*
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I kind of like the lecturer i have for 112 now. although he's like super boring, and he can put me to sleep. maybe its because i pity him, cause i know he's new and no one respects him. thats the only reason why i kept myself awake and made eye contact with him.
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ITCHYYYYYYYYY!!!! oh emmmm ggeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... stop scratching carmen!!!!! go get ice!

good morning world

I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night,

I'm the one that makes you laugh, when you know you're about to cry,

I know your favourite songs, and you tell me about your dreams,

think i know where you belong, think i know its with me.

Cant you see that i'm the one who understands you,

Been here all along so why cant you see,

You belong with me.

I'll never get bored of this. Anyways, i'm going out for lunch later with Ke Hui, not sure where but yea, we'll think of a place soon.

can someone pls push me to do my stupid journal. what the hell, i'll have to finish it by tonight anyways, its DUE tmr. hahaha, when is it ever not a last minute work. haha, you know one thing i dont understand about students in other program in HELP college, they have no idea what citations and refrencings are. I mean, how can yall not know? how do yall do your assignment and essays then? i'm not saying this to diss anyone else, its just that i REALLY REALLY dont know how students can write a paper now without refrencing. I mean, haven't we reach the stage that it isn't highschool papers anymore? No karangan, No ringkasan and such. Isn't it research papers already now? haha, i'm just curious. How is it that some college doesn't even teach citing. Well, i had a hard time in college learning this, and life in uni now is MUCH EASIER!! and for that, THANK YOU mr. K! I really hated they way he pushed us during college, but thinking back about it now, if it wasn't for him, i'd be suffering now. speaking about citations, OMG, PPL, THERE'S AN EASIER WAY, i'm not teaching yall to take the easy way out or such, when it really saves alot of time!! I of course suggest that you know how to cite with your own brains and know where to underline or put a period or a comma and which comes first or second. and when you excel is doing this YOURSELF! pls save your time, and GOOGLE this, *son of citation*. Its a machine that helps us cite and finish our refrencing. just put all the informtion in, submit, and TADAAA... its all done, then just copy and paste. I have to admit that i use this all the time, i mean come on, we have to write tones and tones of pages in an assignment, it can reach up to 20 pages or more, so i use this to save my time. I dont see anything wrong with it i guess. its not like i'm plagiarising or such.

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oh well, i need to go brush my teeth now, YES, i just woke up, AND KE HUI's coming over soon. and i have class at 12. =(

sheesh, wonder what we're gonna do in tutor today. hopefully we're playing games today. =)

YAY!! although i have a feeling that we're not. haha.

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sorry, i just felt like writing in small fonts today. wanna make yall all blind!!!

awww

My grandfather's clock

Was too large for the shelf,

So it stood ninety years on the floor;

It was taller by half

Than the old man himself,

Though it weighed not a pennyweight more.

It was bought on the morn

Of the day that he was born,

It was always his treasure and pride;

But it stopped short

Never to go again,

When the old man died.

A girl from public speaking class today commemorated about her late grandfather. She sang this song as an attention grabber. she started crying halfway, and yes, she manage to bring many of us to tears. *i'm sure your grandfather was a great man, and lucky to have you as a granddaughter*. It was one of the best speech I have heard because she managed to connect well with her audience.

Anyways, i wrote my name in chinese CORRECTLY today. haha, thanks to shimron, who has the patience to teach someone like me. haha, and I kinda made alot of noise in class today. and got scolded by my dear ke hui. haha, but i had fun writing things today. haha. i tried writing in cursive today, but guess what, i sucked! i realise that shimron's quite talented in many ways. haha, he amazes me from time to time. (dont kembang mister)!! thanks for the pau!! i will be able to forge your signature one day. watch me! i'll keep the cards we wrote on. haha

I'm watching legally blonde now ppl!

later. =)

two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

You know this could be something'

Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,

The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

You make it hard for breathing'

Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everythings okay

And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you'

Cause baby two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And I've figured out with all that's said and done

Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.

Realise how it ends. all these while it was only *maybe two is better than one*, and at the end, two IS better than one.

Webster's open house

-Yatze and I, haha, i just felt like sitting on her, and well, she didn't mind. i love you yatze-

-hahaha, look at that ass, good god-

-nafisa, me, anisa, yatze-

the pictures were suppose to be upload a few weeks back but i really didn't have the time. and now i'm free cause i'm having break now.
random, but MY STOMACH HURTS!!! =( damn.

its 29th october 2009!

When she stares at your mouth, Kiss her
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy because she thinks she'sstronger than you, Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet, Ask her what's wrong
When she ignores you, Give her your attention
When she pulls away, Pull her back
When you see her at her worst, Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying, Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking, Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scared, Protect her
When she steals your favourite hoodie, Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you, Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt, Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you, she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands, Hold hers and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes, don't look away until she does
Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
Treat her like she's all that matters to you
Stay up all night with her when she's sick
Watch her favourite movie with her or her favourite show even if you think it's stupid
Give her the world
Let her wear your clothes
When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
Let her know she's important
Don't talk about other girls around her
Kiss her in the pouring rain
When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:"Whose butt am i kicking baby?"

If only guys will know how to do things like this without having to ask for it. (i have to admit, that some guys still think with their balls brains) but hey, its only a hand full of people. I have no idea why, but i'm feeling kinda emotional right now. I need a break from everything, i'm feeling really tired lately because of the on-going meetings in college, and the never ending assignments being put at desk.

I was talking to Elaine on the phone that day, and i really miss her so much cause =), there are things i dont even have to say and she knows what i'm thinking about already. I'm seriously planning to go to singapore soon, solely yo see her of course. maybe on the 21st november ok dear? Wont want you to go through your anniversary alone. Wye Yee and I will do your best to make it alright. And pls, lets talk again soon.

Planning to go to Uk next year. sigh thinking about it is making me really worried. results are not satisfiying, the expenses there is going to burn a hole in my dad's wallet! and sigh, the main problem is leaving all this behind. I have to go either way, sooner or later, and i think it will be the best time to learn independence!

Ya know, few of my friends (CSY, KeHui, Wye Yee and more) realise that.. unfortunately, we are already adults. we've reached the stage where puppy love isn't what we're looking for. as CSY always says, Social Cultural theory, states that woman look for guys that have a stable career, good education.. etc, because they have no direct power to the world (economically la).I dont wanan get too much on the theory side, i just know that what we look for in a guy isn't puppy love anymore. it use to be *ohh he's hot, why not go for it* or *lets just gain experiences first*. now the word *future* comes up alot when things are eing considered. the word *support*, *long term*. I guess as we grow, the responsibilities grow as well, and then these grows, sigh, the more we think. Love isn't just a term to represent the status of a relationship. It includes so much more, the feelings, the action.. etc. two doesn't have to be in a relationship to love. well, i guess this is all according to me la. I have no conclusion or whatsoever to what i've been trying to say, i just needed to express a lil out before i explode.

Hold me now

Don't... don't close your heart to how you feel

Dream, and don't be afraid the dream's not real

Close your eyes, pretend it's just the two of us again

Make believe this moment's here to stay

Touch... touch me the way you used to do

I know tonight could be all I'll have with you

From now on, you'll be with someone else instead of me

So tonight, let's fill this memory

For the last time -

Hold me now

Don't cry, don't say a word

Just hold me now

And I will know -

Though we're apart,

we'll always be together F

orever in love

What do you say when words are not enough?

Time... time will be kind once we're apart

And your tears... tears will have no place in your heart

I wish I... I could say how much I'll miss you when you're gone

How my love for you will go on and on and

Hold me now

Don't cry, don't say a word

Just hold me now

And try to understand that

I hope at last you've found

What you've been searchin' for

And though I won't be there anymore

I will always love you

(Hold me now)

(Don't cry,) don't say a word

Just hold me now

And I will know -

Though we're apart, we'll always be together

Forever in love

What do you say when words are not enough?

What can I say When my words are not enough

so random, so not funny

its Wednesday today...

• Its raining
• It'll be a wonderful time to sleep and snuggle in somebody's arms
• I will be missing ballet again tonight
• I foresee Miss Mak killing me
• I missed tutor today because we didn't see a point in attending
• I could have gone to the gym if i know there isn't anything that was going to happen during tutor, and i could have worked out!!!
  
• I'm feeling super sleepy now
• Oh yea, not forgetting to mention, I'M ALL WET NOW BECAUSE I WAS WALKING IN THE RAIN! again. I'm going to fall sick soon, watch me.
• Pray for me ppl!

i'm waiting to go in to class at four, hopefully it'll finish early, then i wont be getting stuck in the jam! SHIORI, do you know that the frigging lizard pop in my face while i was driving to school today! THANK GOD i didn't crash into anyone on the highway ok. stupid lizards!!! WHY ARE LIZARDS SO ATTRACTED TO MY CAR!!!
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i want ice cream!

today..

Should i go the gym tmr, or should i rest?
I talked to Elaine today early in the morning, YES! i called all the way to singapore and my mum caught me using the phone. haha, kinda got a lil sounnding from her, but ooh well, i'm still alive now.
Holloween is this saturday! and i wanna have some fun too. Rianne's birthday is this sunday and haha, if things are going good, i feel like baking for her.
Anyways, i have this sudden urge to talk about the lecturer for the development psych that i'm in right now, and shiori is right, she seriously doesn't know her work on the tip of her fingers like how kenneth does, and sigh, i really miss kenneth, i think he's a really good lecturer! like the best, besides hera and goh of course. and speaking of lecturers, this reminds me of the tutor we have for econs. ohhh, trust me, i'm not the only one who thinks that he doesn't deserve to teach in HELP! the one thing about HELP that brings up the name is the awesoe lecturers there. well, i'm starting to think otherwise cause of this econs tutor. like what CSY says *i will condemn him even if he's a high school teacher* hahha, funny funny!
Honestly, i had an awesome day today. thank YOU!

Elaine Kim Nevis

sweetheart,
when i got your msg last night, my heart honestly was torn into two. and trust me, i wasn't the only one who felt this way. The four of us are very very worried about you. Dear, you just have to know that things will eventually get better. And pls dont compare yourself to your classmates cause they had the benefit of learning the steps from scratch, and you dont. yes i know the feeling sucks, but wtv it is never think you're useless or helpless or wtv. cause with or without us elaine, you're still the amazing sweet girl we all know. You just moved over, things will definately be hard at first cause you know, need to learn to adapt to people there and cope with the changes but when that phase is over, trust me, you'll have a hell of a time there.

we promise i'll come see you as soon as possible ok, DO NOT EVER HESITATE TO MSG US IN THE WEE HOURS IN THE MORNING!!! (anytime for that matter). We'll write the the steps for you, and send it over asap! we'll get miss mak's help as well, just in case we go wrong anywhere ok.

we really miss you alot!! and always remember, you're a big part of us, so wtv happens, you'll always have this C4 having your back. we love you so much, i love you so much.
take care of yourself ok, i'll msg you soon enough.

always c4e!!

just another ordinary day

I think i'm about to die out of boredom!
was suppose to go to the gym with chiam SY, but haha, i suddenly got lazy.
ya know, i need a new blog skin, but i just cant find one that suits me cause they either look too lala, or too filled in with deco, which looks overlly messy. ugh.

Trisha had her competition in Tropicana Mall on sunday, and i heard that she did really well. sorry baby, i couldn't see you perform, but i'm very proud of you ok. and you look gorgeous because (hahahaah, i did your make up for you, and everyone else). thank you thank you!! i know you didn't get the result you wanted, but at least you got something right? you did well sa, and mummy's very proud of you and so is Sarina. and SAMANTHA, thanks for helping me that day, dont know what i'll do without you! couldn't have finished it so fast. =) loves.

econs suck

Should i go for the concert on saturday?
I really hate making decision like this. know what, i hate making decision as a whole.
Just came out from Econs class, and i was sleeping half way through, as usual la. But hey, i did make notes today, so its actually something considering its econs. I hate econs, never planned to do econs, never will do econs again, dont even know what the hell am i doing in econs class.
Was gonna have lunch when i realise that i'm frigging broke today! all the damn petrol's fault!
i dont feel like blogging anymore, sooo.. i'm gonna stop! later ppl!

congrats

TRISHA WONG SUET YEE!

even though its number four,

you know deep in my heart i'm still so very proud of you.

you'll always be my baby sister.

late at night

I've always complain about people who are flickled minded about things. Not being able to decide is one thing, but choosing a path, then choosing another the next second and changing the decision at every second pisses the shit out of me. But hey, know what, i'm doing it to myself now, and *smiles*, of course i cant bring myself to scold or complain about myself. I'll just show a temper for 5 minutes or so. I'm suppose to be in bed now, sleeping, but haha, insomnia is kicking in. yes yes, IT IS SELF DIAGNOSED because of ONE theory I, myself would love to believe it. and haha, call me stupid, i think i'm going through alot right now (depression). i haven't been eating properly lately, not because i wanna torture myself or all the diet thingy, no!! Its just that i dont have the appetite to eat. I know i've been having gastric lately cause my stomach hurts a lil, thats when i force myself to eat something, but other than that, I'M SERIOUSLY JUST NOT HUNGRY! looking at food make me dizzy. haha, i amaze myself all over again.

Poison's barking like as though she saw a thief just now, haha, good girl i guess. YES, SCARE ALL THE BAD PEOPLE AWAY!!! Grandmother just woke up, god knows why. haha, maybe she has insomnia too!!! runs in the family i guess.

Was talking to Wye Yee earlier just now and we were talking about how she stalked Boys Like Girls. haha, and was telling me about her friend Dan (if i'm not wrong), she is HILARIOUS!! Martin Ong, Lenka Ong!!! hahahahahaha.

Fans : If you were to sacrifice one part of your body, which would it be?
Paul : *thinks*, hmmm, my fingernails?
Carmen : HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!!!!

anyways, i really gotta go to bed already or not I wouldn't be able to wake up tmr. good night yall!

Elaine Kim Nevis

Elaine,
i really wish you're in m'sia right now. Things here aren't going as good as it is suppose to be. sigh. Everything is screwing with my head. Its seriously overwhelming. All the emotions' just coming in at one time, and the worst part is, I BROUGHT THIS ONTO MYSELF! i think i'm just digging deeper into my grave now. I dont wanna go into detail here about everything, but i'm just going through alot of shit and everytime i feel like crying, i think about you. ok, lets update you on other things (put my problems aside right).
anyways, advance 2 steps are seriously difficult. the exercises are frigging long, and the new steps are hard. body twisting hard. i got a spain on my back because of one exercise we did that yesterday. Charmaine, haha, contact her to find out her stories la. Celine's and Charmaine's exams are in 27 days. Wye Yee's still into her thunder wedding song, and of course Bryan!! How are you there? Jon's out from NS for now? get back to me soon k dear. i miss you so much.

always,
carmen

she grew

-haha, she honestly looked so funny when she was young back then-

-then my baby grew, PROUD MUCH-

-and now, haha, she's just awesomely scary!! i love you-

malacca gone, ipoh here i come

Malacca was awesome, the food was really good, and haha, we had alot of fun. I love sitting in a car in a long distanse trip, (expect when i need to pee tho). I'm off to ipoh tmr, and hopefully it'll be as awesome as malacca, WHICH I REALLY THINK IT WILL BE BECAUSE I'LL BE SURROUNDED BY DOG!! YAY!!

what do i do when its me who put myself into a situation like this. I'm selfish, just put it that way.

deepavali

haha, now i know that there are other people who reads my blog as well. haha, big thanks!
anyways, went to deepavali open house at websters. and i think he has an awesome house. damn, the amount of animals they have. cats, dogs, fish, rabbits, birds, tortoises, and a PEACOCK!!! oooo, and there's chickens as well. haha, the peacock's really cool though. and the drinks were really good as well. no idea what drink he mixed in, but i think its really good.

i've been watching house again. and let me tell you this, he's still that hilarious to me. i'll be uploading pictures soon enough. i'm off to bed now, nights love!

HAPPY DEEPAVALI INDIANS and everyone else. =)

thank you jiansheng!!

well, i guess my assumption of no guys being gentlemen anymore... was wrong.
cause thanks to awesome possum jiansheng, he practically saved my life!! (guys, yall really have to thank him for saving each one of you an ounce of dignity).
Shiori attended class yesterday, and it was so good to finally see her again. i think she grew taller, but then again, everyone's taller than me. so wtv la. Was standing around the bus stop (as usual, the million impatient ppl trying to get their way up there) and bumped into jiansheng. After what i wrote about in my last post, haha, smart dude said *here carmen, go first*. hahaha, well, at least he did ok. but either way, i know he wont push or fight to go up to the bus. he'll let any other girl in first. this is what i call a gentlemen. thank you again!
then, shiori and i was heading towards my car. We open the car door, put our stuff at the back seat, and *SCREAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM*. Shiori's awesome screaming was something i haven't heard in a super LONG time. haha, we saw a LIZARD. and of course i didn't dare to drive after that. i mean come on, what if it jumps on me while i drive, and i hit someone on the road. no way i'm going to drive with that thing in my car. so we called for help. shiori wanted to ask some dudes playing basketball in the court, but they all looked as though they we scared of lizards themselves too. so screw it, didn't even bother to ask them.
i called Jiansheng and asked him to rush here to save us both. haha, and as i said, he is a gentlemen, of course he rushed here, with a plastic bag in his hand.
haha, he tried catching the lizard (with his hands, gross!! but haha, he's still awesome).
in the end, the lizard went into the engine conpartment, which *i hope* as good as dead.
then only we drove off after that.
YOU'RE AWESOME! hehe, thank you jiansheng!

midterms

Ke Hui stayed over last night, to study with me. Konon-nya la. haha, but we did study a lil, here and there. We took a break for "15 minutes" which somehow turned to one hour. She's hooked on her CSI investigation and i'm with my zombies thingy thing thing. I was falling asleep already until KeHui found a damn cockroach in my frigging toilet.and guess what, it wasn't only a normal cockroach, IT WAS A FRIGGING FLYING FEMALE BITCH EVIL CRAWLING/FLYING LOOKING MONSTER!! ugh, i freaked out obviously and ran to my mum. She then took newpaper out and slam slam slam. peace after that. =)

I have big issue with guys who DO NOT know how to be gentlemen. i mean come on la, when the girl wants to get on the bus, let her up first, but instead, most guys in my college kills to get in the bus. pushing and pushing and pushing everyone else away to get on the bus. I have to admit that there are a handful of guys which will still says ladies first, which lucky me have witness. There are those one or two who will even offer seats in the bus other the elderly/girls/disable.. etc. I guess most guys now just doesn't get this. oh well.

I just finish my social psychology paper. i think it was awesome. dont wanna jinx it, but i could do mostly all the questions asked. THANK KENNETH for that. I think i've been stressing myself out too much for the pass whole week, and it ends ugly. I'm awfully sick right now, my damn throat is swallon, coming down with a fever, and my whole body aches, especially my nape. and guess what, i still have another paper on wednesday. what joy!!

i hope yall feel better than i have been for the pass week. but i have to say, MELLACA WAS FUN, AND IPOH HERE I COME!!!

midterms

i wish i could still lie down on the floor like this in college. midterms are here and honestly, i'm feeling so stress. movie review isn't done yet, and there are people who's already done with it, good god. I need to destress. dance dance dance it all off! But i'm going to melacca tmr and YES!!! omg, a break finally.

i just watched PS i love you and i cried my eyeballs out. I think what he did was so sweet. like what people say, when you love something, let it go and if its meant to be, it'll always be there.